Tuesday, June 24, 2008


A friend sent me this one which i think is really nice...

Old Age, I decided, is a gift. I am now, probably for the first time in my life, the person I have always wanted to b e. Oh, not my body!
I sometime despair over my body, the wrinkles, the baggy eyes, and the sagging butt. And often I am taken aback by that old person that lives in my mirror, but I don't agonize over those things for long.
I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, my loving family for less gray hair or a flatter belly. As I've aged, I've become more kind to myself, and less critical of myself.
I've become my own friend. I don't chide myself for eating that extra cookie, or for not making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I didn't need, but looks so avante garde on my patio. I am entitled to a treat, to be messy, to be extravagant. I have seen too many dear friends leave this world too soon; before they understood the great freedom that comes with aging. Whose business is it if I choose to read or play on the computer until 4 AM and sleep until noon?
I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 60&70's, and if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost love .... I will. I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body, and will dive into the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite the pitying glances from the jet set . They, too, will get old.
I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there again, some of life is just as well forgotten. And I eventually remember the important things. Sure, over the years my heart has been broken. How can your heart not break when you lose a loved one, or when a child suffers, or even when somebody's beloved pet gets hit by a car? But broken hearts are what give us strength and understanding and compassion. A heart never broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect.
I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turning gray, and to have my youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on my face. So many have never laughed, and so many have died before their hair could turn silver. As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You care less about what other people think.
I don't question myself anymore. I've even earned the right to be wrong. So, to answer your question, I like being old. It has set me free. I like the person I have become. I am not going to live forever, but while Iam still here, I will not waste time lamenting what could have been, or worrying about what will be. And I shall eat dessert every single day. (If I feel like it)
Hmm... it is so comforting to know that one can accept growing old and not be bothered by all the negatives that comes with it. I have an aunt who has lived past 80 and she is now losing her memory and her memory lapses has become a joke among family members. Just last week I had breakfast with this aunt and she was talking about how difficult it is for her to remember events and the others started teasing her again... Relatives teasing her... asking her about my kids names and then trying to cinfuse her.
So I decided to come to her rescue. I told her, "Yee Ku Mah... (a chinese term for an aount who is the older sister of your father) do not worry about your memory loss. It is just nature's way of letting you forget all your troubles just so that you can truly be at peace. Looking at you now I can see that your face is now much more serene and peaceful... (And I said that out of sincerity. Not because I am telling a white lie to make her feel happy). She was so grateful and thank me for this observation...

Sunday, June 08, 2008


June 8, 2008

The human race seems to be the only creature capable of defying nature when we see all around us the artificial world that we have created. We even defy gravity to venture into space… Everything we have created is an illusion but of course we must admit that some illusions are truly BEAUTIFUL…

The law of nature prevail no matter how hard humanity tries to strike out on her own…

Much as I weep tears of grief & compassion for the people of Sichuan… I see the quake as nature’s way of expressing her natural power of “CREATIVE DESTRUCTION” when the natural harmony is out of sync with the LAW…

TAO unseen… through the natural forces of yin and yang unleashes a power that humanity can never control to destroy and re-create. The natural harmony will be maintained no matter how humanity seeks to shape the world to her liking. When will humanity ever learn that we can not strive to be separate from TAO?

The free will that humanity possesses leads humanity to create this material world… it also leads humanity to view themselves as separate from the world… and thus we see the trait of selfishness being displayed by the human race in their competition with one another to create the best for themselves, their families, their race, their nation, etc. etc.

It takes the power of the natural forces to unleash a tragedy so devastating to enable humanity to rise above their natural selfish tendencies….

It is the DESTINY of those poor souls who perished in the quake to sacrifice their lives so that we may learn what true


I am moved to tears by this song composed by May Chan. The translation of the song’s lyrics by Alice Poon below…


The sky is darkening, and the birds have gone to bed.
I’m all alone and thinking about my papa and mama.
Their faces so kind, sweet like honey,
They are saying goodbye to me, from that place so far away.

Goodbye, mama, goodbye, papa,
I know you love me so.
Goodbye, mama, goodbye, papa,
I will not fear if the sky gets darker still.
I will grow up all the same.

But I still miss you, and your cosy arms
That hug me so close to you.
I’m thankful to you, and I wish you well in silence,
Hoping you will find peace, in that far-away place.

Goodbye, mama, goodbye, papa,
I know you love me so.
Goodbye, mama, goodbye, papa,
I will not fear if the sky gets darker still.
I will grow up all the same.

Goodbye, mama, goodbye, papa,
I know you love me so.
Goodbye, mama, goodbye, papa,
I will not fear if the sky gets darker still.
I will grow up all the same.

Thank you my fellow human for reminding that we are ONE and that our destiny in this realm is to help one another grow bigger and bigger spiritually….

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Hun yuan ling tong!
Kian Tee

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Saturday, June 07, 2008


Dear friends,

Spare a few moments to reflect on the sufferings of our brothers and sisters. In times of tragedy humanity rise above their selfish tendencies and display the goodness within as shown by this beautiful song by May Chan…

A thoughtful soul who cares…


... KIAN TEE...

The following is Alice Poon’s translation of the song lyrics:-
(Link in Asia Sentinel)

The sky is darkening, and the birds have gone to bed.
I’m all alone and thinking about my papa and mama.
Their faces so kind, sweet like honey,
They are saying goodbye to me, from that place so far away.
Goodbye, mama, goodbye, papa,
I know you love me so.
Goodbye, mama, goodbye, papa,
I will not fear if the sky gets darker still.
I will grow up all the same.
But I still miss you, and your cosy arms
That hug me so close to you.
I’m thankful to you, and I wish you well in silence,
Hoping you will find peace, in that far-away place.
Goodbye, mama, goodbye, papa,
I know you love me so.
Goodbye, mama, goodbye, papa,
I will not fear if the sky gets darker still.
I will grow up all the same.
Goodbye, mama, goodbye, papa,
I know you love me so.
Goodbye, mama, goodbye, papa,
I will not fear if the sky gets darker still.
I will grow up all the same.

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Sunday, May 25, 2008

Tragedy unleashes a great unifying force

This article is taken from the Star Newspaper of Malaysia.


Beijing Express


THE May 12 Wenchuan earthquake is a tragedy that few of us will ever forget and most of us will remember how this tragedy became a great unifier in China.

We are with you (Wenchuan quake victims)!

Almost everywhere we went in the affected areas of the quake zone or Chinese cities, we saw this slogan.

People often say tragic experience can be a crucible and this devastating magnitude 8 earthquakewas one, for both the people and their government!

Two hours after the massive earthquake struck Sichuan, Premier Wen Jiabao flew from Beijing to Chengdu.

He reached the Sichuan capital around 7pm and rushed to Dujiangyan by 8.30pm.

The ruined city was in inky darkness and the Premier and his team relied solely on a diesel-powered engine for lighting.

Wen has been leading the relief operations since and making numerous trips by various means to reach the people in the affected areas.

When I left for Beijing on Friday, Wen made a second visit the quake zone even though he had earlier covered most of the places to check on the situation.

On May 16th, President Hu Jintao joined Wen and called for a meeting on rescue operations again despite passing the 72-hour rescue window.

Saving lives is still the top priorty of their work, the leaders said.

Many affected areas remain unsafe and when aftershocks struck again and heavy rain poured, the rescue team had to leave but a rescue worker kneeled down and begged: “Please let me save one more life before we go.''

A group of ex-soldiers broke down in tears as they were leaving Dujiangyan where they had been stationed in during the rescue operations, when I met them on Wednesday.

“It (the quake) has killed so many lives,'' cried one of them.

China Mobile technician Liu Jian Qiu was the first to notice the rolling boulders when the aftershock struck.

He was in Ma'erkang county leading a team of over 20 members to repair broken cables restoring communications in Wenchuan.

He could have run for his life but he shouted loudly for his team to run and he used his life to save a colleague by trying to block the blouders and push his colleague away from danger.

“Our team leader (Liu) saved my life,'' Li Wei Xiang recalled.

Before Liu gasped his last breath, his last words were: “I want to go home.”

Touching stories of how teachers sacrified their lives to save their students overflow the media.

As teachers drew their last breath, they gave their students the last lesson and showed them the most beautiful language in the world - love.

I see everyone, leaders or ordinary people, jian shou gang wei (remain dutiful in their respective roles.)

I see strength in the people.

I see unselfish love.

I see hope.

The list goes on.

It's simply very humbling and very tragic. As tragic as the May 12 Wenchuan earthquake can be, I learnt that tragedy can be a means of grace.

It can be a wake up call in a very serious and profound way.

A lesson to everyone.

And it can also be a force for bringing people together!

It reminds us to appreciate the chance that we too often take for granted - the chance to live another day.

Tragedy can be a blessing if we let it. “Don't cry,'' said a friend who is still in Wenchuan.

And let's remember the silver lining of the tragedy instead.

Friday, May 23, 2008


I got this through the email.... Though everything is an illusion, some illusions are truly BEAUTIFUL!

A young man learns what's most important in life from the guy next door.

It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man. College, girls, career, and life itself got in the way. In fact, Jack moved clear across the country in pursuit of his dreams. There, in the rush of his busy life, Jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to spend with his wife and son. He was working on his future, and nothing could stop him.

Over the phone, his mother told him, "Mr. Belser died last night. The funeral is Wednesday." Memories flashed through his mind like an old newsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood days.

"Jack, did you hear me?"

"Oh, sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It's been so long since I thought of him. I'm sorry, but I honestly thought he died years ago," Jack said.
"Well, he didn't forget you. Every time I saw him he'd ask how you were doing. He'd reminisce about the many days you spent over 'his side of the fence' as he put it," Mom told him.

"I loved that old house he lived in," Jack said.

"You know, Jack, after your father died, Mr. Belser stepped in to make sure you had a man's influence in your life," she said

"He's the one who taught me carpentry," he said.. "I wouldn't be in this business if it weren't for him. He spent a lot of time teaching me things he thought were important...Mom, I'll be there for the funeral," Jack said..

As busy as he was, he kept his word. Jack caught the next flight to his hometown. Mr. Belser's funeral was small and uneventful. He had no chil dren of his own, and most of his relatives had passed away.

The night before he had to return home, Jack and his Mom stopped by to see the old house next door one more time.

Standing in the doorway, Jack paused for a moment. It was like crossing over into another dimension, a leap through space and time The house was exactly as he remembered. Every step held memories. Every picture, every piece of furniture....Jack stopped suddenly.

"What's wrong, Jack?" his Mom asked.

"The box is gone," he said

"What box?" Mom asked. !

"There was a small gold box that he kept locked on top of his desk. I must have asked him a thousand times what was inside.. All he'd ever tell me was 'the thing I value most ,'" Jack said.

It was gone. Everything about the house was exactly how Jack remembered it, except for the box. He figured someone from the Belser family had taken it.

"Now I'll never know what was so valuable to him," Jack said. "I better get some sleep. I have an early flight home, Mom." !

It had been about two weeks since Mr. Belser died. Returning home from work one day Jack discovered a note in his mailbox. "Signature required on a package. No one at home. Please stop by the main post office within the next three days," the note read.

Early the next day Jack retrieved the package. The small box was old and looked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago. The handwriting was difficult to read, but the return address caught his attention. "Mr..... Harold Belser" it read. Jack took the box out to his car and ripped open the package. There insid! e was the gold box and an envelope. Jack's hands shook as he read the note inside.

"Upon my death, please forward this box and its contents to Jack Bennett.. It's the thing I valued most in my life." A small key was taped to the letter. His heart racing, as tears filling his eyes, Jack carefully unlocked the box. There inside he found a beautiful gold pocket watch.

Running his fingers slowly over the finely etched casing, he unl! atched the cover. Inside he found these words engraved:

"Jack, Thanks for your time! -Harold Belser."

"The thing he valued most was...my time" ! ;

Jack held the watch for a few minutes, then called his office and cleared his appointments for the next two days. "Why?" Janet, his assistant asked.

"I need some time to spend with my son," he said.

"Oh, by the way, Janet, thanks for your time!"

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away,"

Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true...

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in! this wo rld love you in some way. !
3! .. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
4. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
5. You mean the world to someone.
6. If not for you, someone may not be living.
7. You are special and unique.
8. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you prob ably won't get It, but if you trust God to do what's best, and wait on His time, sooner or later, you will get it or something better.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good can still come from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
11. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.!
12. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
13 . Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know and you'll both be happy..
14. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

To everyone I send this to "Thanks for your time"

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Qi gong state (of mind)

The effectiveness of qi gong depends to a large extent on the ability of the practitioner to "relax" or "fang song". This relaxed state is also known as "entering the qi gong state". Learning the forms of zhineng qi gong at level 1 is fairly easy and one can learn it within a short period of time of one month or less.
However to effectively enter the qi gong state and gain maximum benefit, the practitioner has to be able to use his mind or "yi" during the preparation stage to relax each and every part of his body from head to toe. According to the founder of zhineng qi gong, Dr. Pang He Ming, the eight verses or "ba ji kou jie" if practiced correctly constitute towards 30% (in terms of practice effectiveness) of each practice session.
Practitioners of zhineng qi gong will understand that after the initial relaxation stage brought about with the help of verbal directives from the teacher, the eight verses serves to enable the practitioner who has now entered the qi gong state, to expand into the heavens and at the same time stay firmly rooted to earth. In this state the practitioner is close to what is known as "tian ren he yi" or unity of man and heaven.
For practitioners who are initially "insensitive" to qi or unable to "feel qi", entering the qi gong state is no easy task and they end up struggling through their qi gong session... instead of using their minds to attract qi into their body effortlessly.
In my own experience, after 5 years of perseverence, I am now just starting to experience the true meaning of "xing song yi chong..." or "body relaxes... mind expands..." This is the result of supplementing my own practice regimes with a set of simple warm up exercises used by "tai chi" practitioners. These exercises methodically loosens the practitioners' legs, hands, neck, shoulders, waist, knees, etc. Thereafter it becomes much easier for me to concentrate and follow the teacher's verbal directives to enter into a profound qi gong state or "qi gong tai".
How precisely does one know that one has entered into a profound qi gong state? In my own opinion, this is highly subjective and depends on each individual's understanding as well as level of progress. What is considered by an individual to be successful entry into qi gong state at a certain level may turn out to be different when he progresses into a higher level. A good gauge would be for the practitioner to check that during his practice, he can truly keep his mind inside his body. In my own experience, I employ "yi shou dan tian" or focusing mind in dan tian to gauge how effectively I have entered into the qi gong state of mind.
For instance, if during a session of LCUPCD, I am able to "feel a connection" to my lower dantian at all times and in all my movements, I will be able to feel that my movements are all initiated or comes from my lower dantian and hence the yi or spirit is in all the movements and conscious use of muscles is minimised or even eliminated.
Hun yuan ling tong!

Sunday, May 11, 2008


Kian Tee,
thank you so much for staying with us, I so much appreciate and learn from your entires!!!We can learn all we want from books, and even lectures. It is for us to truly be one with these concepts which are beyond words!!
May 11, 2008
Thanks Fay.
The destiny of humanity is an endless march from ignorance to enlightenment and if we recognize this it is natural for us to share and help one another in this quest...Like Blythe who is faced with her husband's "incomprehension" I have my kids tell me: "Dad... why don't you go and stay in a monastery..." when I speak about TAO and spirituality.I blog to pen down my thoughts and I am "attached" to this forum... where I can share/exchange with my fellow travelers.
Hun yuan ling tong!
Kian Tee

Friday, May 09, 2008

May 9, 2008

Hi Dawn, Blythe,
Nice of you guys to pay me a visit. Don't feel so lonely anymore....
I think the "first thought" is a manifestation of TAO. For that matter everything that happens after the first thought has TAO in it. TAO is everywhere but ... because of its metaphysical nature we can never perceive TAO with our physical senses.I post this because because I realized the connection between the scientific fact of an "electric current being generated when a conductor is moved through a magnetic field" and the "infinite ripples generating qi in the presence of... TAO (field)?"We note also that out of "Nothingness" came a "first thought" Can Nothingness think? It can only mean that nothingness is not really nothingness but is also something. In our realm A is A and B is B but in the realm of spirituality A & B are two sides of the same coin. TAO is both being and non-being.I wonder in my lifetime if I will ever be able to expereince this unified state of "being and non-being" Work hard my fellow qigongers... work hard!
My husband can understand and share ideas and experiences about many things - being present, letting go, being in the moment, quieting teh monkey mind, the transience and greateer reality of some experiences like those that occur during qigong...but then I try to explain physically expanding to infinity/the Void within, and there is utter incomprehension, and even incomprehension of the fact that he's not comprehending what I am saying.- Blythe
Blythe, I know what you mean. We fail everytime we try to use our limited system of language and symbols to explain something beyond this dimension...Even if we understand... it is only a knowledge and being knowledge, it is only a pointer to the door and until we manage to open this door (the mysterious pass?) and enter it our knowledge will never be complete...
Hun yuan ling tong!
Kian Tee


It feels kind of lonely out here....

Being out here alone made me realize that one year has passed by since I joined the class and it feels kind of lonely...... I would like to share this piece on TAO which is taken from a book by Deng Meng-Dao:
In the beginning was Nothingness. Out of Nothingness came a random thought. A thought that generated infinite RIPPLES within the stillness. Movement gave rise to qi, vital breath. Breath congealed into the five elements: water, metal, fire, wood, & earth symbolic of matter. Then this chaos became organized by yin and yang. Breathing knew inhalation and exhalation, the universe was ordered according to duality; for only in the interaction and tension between polar opposites could movement and evolution arise. The interaction of all these things finally brought forth gods, humanity, and all myriad phenomena. That first thought was like a stone dropping into a pristinely still pond. All that came after may be called TAO. TAO is therefore not that which is totally irreducible, for only Nothingness qualifies for that definition. TAO is only a shade away from Nothingness....
Hun yuan ling tong!
Kian Tee

Saturday, May 03, 2008


I was reading a book on Tai Chi and came across the meaning of "Yi Shou Dantian" as mind being focussed on our lower dantian or lower energy center. The author went on to say that every movement starts with the dantian and in this way our spirit will manifest in all movements. I realized that this is what I need to stay focussed within during my practice and tried it out during this morning's session of ZBE. From the start: "Duan sheng cheng zuo..." I placed my "Yi" in my lower dantian and at the directive of "bai hui shang ling... sia ke nei shou..." instead of using my neck muscle I used my mind to think qi from dantian rising to lift up my bai hui... Thus the movement has originated from dantian. The effect was surprising.... an almost effortless movement of bai hui being lifted and chin following inward to my chest.. spine pleasantly stretched...

During establishment of qi field: "Siang qi kong... (think space)" A momentary affirmation of yi on dantian and then gently shifting yi towards "chi kong" produces a sensation of outward expansion which is being controlled from dantian acting as the center.

During ZBE1 I felt a relaxation in my abdomen and lower never felt before. Breating in I can feel qi being drawn seamlessly into dantian with concurrent relaxation of the lower back and lumber bones to accomodate the qi. Towards the end of the breathe in cycle I felt the need to intervene with a slight muscular action to change the cycle to breathing out. This muscular action caused a momentary loss of connectedness with dantian. Not perfect yet as I know the changeover should be a seamless transformation from in to out. More work needs to be done here.

The overall effect of employing "yi shou dantian" is a continual feeling of connectedness with dantian at all times... Whilst employing this mode of practice I am aware of my thoughts moving back to a week ago when I was at my son's school science fair. At the fair I had the opportunity for the first time in my life to peer into space through a telescope to look at the planet Saturn. It surprised me how beautiful Saturn looked in "real life" as opposed to seeing it in pictures and in photographs in the internet. I could not stay look at it too long as there was a long queue behind me. I felt that I need to look at her again and re-joined the queue right at the back for another opportunity. When my turn came again I am more prepared for it... the same sense of awe struck me at how beautiful the planet can be and this time I noticed that it is gliding across space from one side of the scope towards the centre... wow! I had to stop again as it would not be fair to the others waiting in the queue.

While this thought was re-playing itself in my sub-conscious, it dawned on me that it is TAO that is moving Saturn and all the planets and stars in the entire universe! TAO is the center of this motion... it is a point about which everything revolves around and yet it is not static for it is at the same time the origin of all movements of the planets and stars. A sudden inspiration strikes me:



Sunday, April 27, 2008


I sit here in front of my PC wondering what to write...

My qi gong journey has opened up an awareness within me that there is a greater self within and this is the spirit that we often speak about. As my qi gong practice allows me to look more and more deeply into my being I am beginning to understanding why they say that our body is God's temple. In deep contemplation we experience such peace and tranquility... a feeling that is hard to describe in words. As are the many feelings that I have experienced whilst in meditation that are difficult to put in words... words that are hardly adequate to express what I feel...

As my qi continues to strengthen my "shen" ( or spirit) I become keenly aware of every slight movement of my mind...

  1. Something some one said just gave rise to an uneasy feeling...
  2. I become hurt thinking that I have been wronged by others...
  3. I am hurt because my boss does not trust me...
  4. the list goes on and on...
Sigh... this mind so conditioned by our world is such a fragile mind. Sometimes I wonder just how long I have to suffer this unstable emotional state before I could finally achieve the spiritual constancy that I am striving to achieve through my qi gong and mind cultivation. But through qi gong, reading the wisdom of the Dao De Jing (Tao Te Jing), and meditations has taught me to just carry on with what I am doing without any expectation... If the breakthrough will come it will come...

I went to my son's school last week for a science fair and had the opportunity to peer into a telescope. For the first time in my life I had the opportunity to look at Saturn with her beautiful ring. She was so peaceful and constant as she glides through space... It feels me with awe that TAO determines her beauty and her course through space. So peaceful... so ordered... ever changing and in motion.

Great! I managed to spontaneously penned my thoughts feelings with out any pre-meditation or thoughts on what I should write before I log on.

Saturday, March 15, 2008


March 15, 2008

The story from Blythe... there's a variation to it which I have seen in the website, "True Tao" of Derek Lin. I will fill in some details into Blythe's version from memory:

"There was a man being chased down a trail through the jungle by a man-eathing tiger. He ran as fast as he could, but the tiger was running faster. Still he ran, hoping for a tree he could climb in time, a house to take shelter in, a warrior to defend him, something, anything to save him from the tiger. He ran around a bend in the trail... and found himself at the edge of a dropoff that was a hundred feet straight down. He was doomed! But then he saw a thick vine hanging down over the edge of the dropoff! He grabbed it and climbed down. The tiger couldn't get him. He climbed and he climbed, but the vine got thin and weak and he was still too far above the ground to survive a fall. He looked up, and saw the tiger looking down at him, but he knew, if he just hung on long enough, the tiger would go away.

He thought of jumping down to escape the fearsome tiger above and looked down... to his horror he saw another tiger below snarling at him. Just when he thought that the situation could not get any worse.... he heard a nibble, nibble, nibble noise and saw, way up in reach of the tiger's swatting paw, two mice... one white, one black.... nibbling on the vine, chewing through it....

The man looked in all directions for a rock to stand on or a ledge to cling to or a trail slanting down. He looked and he looked as the vine creaked under his weight and the tiger growled above him . And then, off to one side, in easy reach, he saw a fragrant, ripe berry hanging from a plant rooted in the cliff. He picked it and ate it. It was the best berry he had ever tasted.

The end.

The scenario represents our state of mind:
1) Our attachment to the past (unable to let go) and being haunted by it as well (the tiger is hungry and wanting to eat us)... represented by the tiger above
2) Our fear of death: represented by the tiger below
3) Our perception of the time (we always say life is too short).... represented by the two mice: the white one - day, the black one - night
4) The mice nibbling away on the vine depicts our perception of never being fulfilled with the present and always trying to break away to find the happiness that never come
5) The vine represents our journey (life) through this realm called "world" which is destined to end

and finally there is another state of mind represented by the sweet strawberry: TRUE HAPPINESS

When we are able to taste the sweet strawberry that has always been within reach and right in front of us, we have found our TAO. Eckhard Tolle calls this state of mind: "being PRESENT". When we are PRESENT, there is no past, no future, and no perception of time... only NOW.

The famous Taoist sage, Chuang Tzu says that you never find happiness until you stop looking for it.

Hun yuan ling tong!
Kian Tee

Friday, March 07, 2008

Essential basic understanding of qi gong practice

A lot of our problems with our health results from our emotional well being. I have been reading this very interesting book by Dr. Yang Jwing Ming entitled “The roots of Chinese Qi Gong” and I would like to share some basic theory of traditional Chinese qigong which I believe will be essential to all qi gong practitioners.

From the traditional qi gong point of view, the roots of our life are:
1) Jing (essence),
2) Qi (our life force), and
3) Shen (our spirit).
Together thay are called “San Ben” or three foundations or sometimes, “san yuan” or three origins.

There are also three important phrases in qi gong practice which we must understand:
1) "Lian qing hua qi” – It means to conserve, strengthen, and finally convert it (jing) to qi.
2) "Lian qi hua shen” – It means to lead qi to the head to strengthen our spirit, and finally
3) “Lian shen liao xing” – It means to strengthen our spirit so that it may control our emotional mind (xing).
We know that our health depends on our emotional well being and cancer is on the rise because of the stressful modern day living. We realize that the path of qi gong has helped us cope better with the demands of modern day living. We realize too that qi gong has given us better health and therefore better quality of life. Why is that so? It is because qi gong practice has helped us put our spirit (a mind that has found its centre and is focused) in control over our mind (a mind that is unstable and easily moved by everything that is happening around us).
The root of our shen is the kidney where our original essence (yuan jing or congenital qi from our parents) resides. Therefore for those of us who are emotionally disturbed by our fear, do more “zhuan yao shuan kua” which can strengthen your kidney and hence your essence (gu jing). Do more LCUPCD, 3CM, ZBE, “yang qi” which can not only gather/concentrate hunyuan qi to our lower dantian but also help our qi circulate up to our head (Not forgetting doing more THCMM of course) to nourish/strengthen our shen. Having the central meridian open is definitely a big plus because it leads qi directly to our shen.
When our shen is strong, our mind (the emotional one) will not be able to unseat our shen from the seat of control. Or if it does manage to move our strengthened shen will quickly find its centre again and we stay focused… unmoved by our irrational fear.
This reminds me of my favourite quote from 365 Tao:
Chinese character for the word "point": eye see one day ... such color.....Make the mindA single point

The key to meditation is to concentrate the mind into a single point. There are many methods for doing this, from singing, to listening to holy words, to contemplative procedures. But at the end result is the same: to focus our minds sharply.
A point has a definite position in space but neither size nor shape.A point marks an actual place in time, such as a point of departure.
A point is the very essence of something, as in the point of an idea.A point is a coordinate for navigation.
A point is the dominant center, as in the principal point of perspective.
A point determines our outlook, as in point of view.
Once the mind is made into a single point, it takes on the above attributes. In contrast, a mind that is not focused is dispersed over a wide area. Its thoughts are scattered, its energies at the mercy of a thousand influences and is easily disoriented. The result is confusion, ignorance, unhappiness, and helplessness. A mind that is clearly focused, however, receives all to say that its world revolves around it. It is no longer has to chase after all that appears before it.
365 Tao
Deng Ming-Dao

Thursday, February 28, 2008



1. The qi of human
1.1. Congenital qi
Congenital qi is derived from the essence of ovum and spermatozoon. Reaction of the two congenital qi’s and its subsequent gathering and condensation results in the formation of the zygote and eventually the foetus.

1.2. Xian tian qi (before heaven qi)
The foetus takes nourishment from the mother through the umbilical cord. The essence (jing) from the mother to the foetus through the umbilical cord transforms into qi which reacts with the congenital qi of the foetus to form “xian tian qi” or foetus qi.

1.3. Yuan qi
After birth, the xian tian qi is stored in the kidneys as “yuan jing” or original essence. Throughout the life of the human, yuan jing is progressively converted into qi (more specifically, "yuan qi" or original qi) and released into the lower “dan tian” (located slightly below the navel).

1.4. Chen qi or Hou tian qi (after heaven qi)
The baby starts to take in air through his nose and food through his mouth and subsequent life processes which takes place in the relevant organs results in the formation of “chen qi” or “hou tian qi” (or post natal qi). This hou tian qi is stored in the middle dan tian which is located at the solar plexus.

1.5. Dispersal of yuan qi and chen qi
Yuan qi from the lower dan tian and chen qi from the middle dan tian are released into the “ren mai” and “du mai” (the conception and governing vessel) where they are blended to become one and then distributed throughout the entire body to sustain the life of the human.

1.6. Wei qi or guardian qi
Wei qi is a layer of qi that covers the skin and even extends beyond the body. It forms a shield protecting the body against outside influences such as cold and pathogens.

The entire qi system of the human body forms the human "qi body". An andvanced qigong practitioner would be become aware of this qi body as a feeling of the entire body "moving/feeling like water."

2. The human body or form
The human body or form is just simply the physical body of the human, it’s shape, and appearance.

3. The messages encoded in the human
Messages encoded into the human genes determine the physical as well as mental and even health characteristics of the human.

From the Hun Yuan Qi principle of zhineng qigong, the qi of human (human qi body), the body and the messages encoded in the genes of the human form the human hun yuan qi.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Dealing with emotional reactions

Advice by Jane Jin:

It's normal since your organic chi has been activated. Please apply the following tips in dealing with your emotional reactions:

i. Heart – joy (think of the nose tip to nourish the spleen)
ii. Liver – anger (think of a smiling face to nourish the heart)
iii. Lungs – sadness (pretend to be in a fearful mode and make the chi go to kidneys)
iv. Spleen – worries and too much thinking (tap Baihui and think of the blue sky and white clouds)
v. Kidneys – fear (think of a green colour in the back of the head)

Life is more abundant!
Top Posted: 2008-02-18 23:00 No. 290 replies.

Monday, February 04, 2008

New Practice Center: February 04, 2008

On February 4, 2008 I found a new practice center which is nearer my home. It is located at a community center near the market. The center as I found out yesterday is run by my ex-teacher at the old center (the one I am currently practicing at). It was established in September 2007 which means most of the students are new... only a few months with the exception of one or two more experienced ones. I had my first session at the new center and found that despite the place being comprised of students with not much experience in zhineng qi gong, the qi field feels strong and 'soothing'. Makes me wonder why.....
I have made up my mind to make this one of my new practice center. I shall leave the decision of whether to stop going to the old practice center to a later time. With this additional center I will have group practice sessions on Wednesday, Sunday at the old center and Thursday and Sunday at the new center. Both centers practice at 8pm to 10pm which means the Sundays for the two centers clashes.

Change subject:
引用第824楼felix.h于2008-02-03 01:50发表的 :You said it takes 40mn to completely activate true qi to do the job in BMF N°6. I assume that 40mn must be continuous and not in several times, isn't it?Does it mean it also takes that time to activate true qi in other forms? For example in ZBEs? That's why we need to practice for 3 hours continuously to have more effects? If I don't have enough time, let's say only 1h, is it better to do "only 1 ZBE for 40mn + 1 THCMM + 20mn's YC" or to do "10mn for each of the 3 ZBEs + THCMM + YC"?.......

Yes, it should be done continuously.Not exactly. The rule is that our human body have resistance barriers against the charging of true chi. No matter what forms you perform, cross-leg meditation or other forms, the first pass or barrier is around 45 minutes, after you pass it, you can extend the duration to 1.5 hours, after you pass this one, it would be two hours , if you can do some form none stop for three hours, almost no pains or numbness would bother you because almost all the blockages have been cleared. It should be practiced gradually, increase the duration minute by minute to avoid any harm to the body.If you have only one hour, you have many options, you can do 30 min. ZBE (1), or (2) or (3), or 10 min of each of ZBE. 10 min THCMM, 20 min. Yang Chi, It's totally up to you. You know yourself better than others.
February 05, 2008

Thursday, January 31, 2008


Hua Xia Zhineng Qigong Center

Grandmaster and Professor Pang Ming

Grandmaster and Dr. Pang Ming was born as Pang Heming in September, 1940 in Dingxing County, Hebei Province, China. In Chinese, his name literally means the crane making its sounds. He was the Chairman of the Hua Xia Qigong Center, Chairman of the Board and Assistant Editor of the magazine, “East Qigong”. He was also a Committee Member of the Qigong Research Center of China, Chairman of the Advisors Board of the Beijing Qigong Research Society.
Professor Pang was influenced by the practice of traditional Chinese medicine, qigong and martial arts since he was very young. After graduating from Beijing Medical College in 1958, he practiced western medicine. From 1958 to 1962 Pang Ming studied Chinese medicine at the Beijing Chinese Medicine Association. After his training, he worked as a Doctor of Chinese Medicine, and it was during this time that he started to earnestly study qigong.
In the beginning, he studied Buddhism and learned a Buddhist style of qigong. Starting in 1964 he began to increase his training in martial arts. After 1970, he followed the teachings of various grandmasters of Daoist and traditional qigong, researching the many Daoist texts on qigong.
His knowledge into both Chinese and Western medicine provided a very strong foundation for his research with qigong. At the same time, his knowledge of qigong also greatly improved his medical practice.
In 1979 Pang Ming founded the first qigong organization for the public, the Beijing Qigong Research Society. Dr. Pang started to research the traditional forms of qigong and to make improvements, creating Zhineng Qigong. Since that time he has traveled to more than 20 provinces and cities in China to give lectures on qigong. He was widely accepted and highly respected by qigong practitioners.
In 1987 he became the Deputy Director of the Eastern Sports Facility of the Nanding Day University and gave lectures on qigong. In 1988 he created the Hebei Shijiazhuang Zhineng Qigong College. In November, 1991 he moved the Center to Hebei Qinhuandao and changed the name to the Hua Xia Zhineng Qigong Training Center. The Hua Xia Healing and Research Center is also located there. In May, 1996 the Hua Xia Zhineng Healing Center changed its location to Fengrun, Tangshan, Hebei.
In the spring of 1996, he started the construction of the Zhineng Qigong City at Beijing, Shunyi. Between 1992 and 1995, he set up the Hebei Hua Xia Zhineng Training Center of Hebei, Qihuangdao. Over the years the Center has treated more than 300,000 patients with 180 different diseases, and achieved an overall effectiveness rate of 95%. The use of qi has also been scientifically proved and documented to be effective in treating patients with various diseases. Research has also shown that the use of qi can improve the yield of various crops in agriculture, as well as improve poultry production with virtually no additional costs. More than 3,000 research papers have been published on this work in China. Between 1996 and 2001, Dr. Pang set up the Hua Xia Zhineng Qigong Training Center, the Healing Center, and Zhineng Qigong City all in one location.
Dr. Pang has written many books on Zhineng Qigong. He not only created Zhineng Qigong, which is easy to learn and highly effective, but has also written the “Integral Hun Yuan Theories” and introduced the use of the Qi-field to teach qigong and to treat patients.
Currently the Hua Xia Zhineng Qigong Center is closed. Grandmaster Pang is staying at home continuing his Zhineng Qigong research, practice, and writing.

Monday, January 28, 2008


January 28, 2008
I am on leave from work today. Stayed in bed a little longer than usual before getting up to do my gong. Still practicing zhi tui zuo to loosen my waist. After talking with my teacher about zhi tui zuo and about the feeling of qi pressure in the head, he adviced me to skip certain routines in the zhi tui zuo as they bring more qi up into the head which I do not need.
That was what I did this morning - skipped the unnecessary routines. After zhi tui zhuo, I did dantian meditation in crossed legged posture. When focusing on lower dantian I used the mudra of "holding qi ball" at navel level. When I remembered, I draw in hui yin and immediately felt qi rise up and soothe away the tense feeling in my chest and shoulders. Felt very relaxed thereafter and could focus deep within. After 20 minutes switched to focus on middle dantian with HYLT mudra at MDT. During meditation at middle dantian I started to feel qi trying to clear blockages in my pelvis (kua) - an increasingly aching sensation slowly building up. This later extended down to my legs. It was getting rather uncomfortable and I had to muster my mental strength to sit through another 20 minutes bearing with the discomfort while focusing into middle dantian at the same time. Realized that doing yang qi in crossed legged posture is much more effective and challenging. After a short rest to allow the numbness in my legs to go away I did wall squats for the next 20 minutes before ending practice and now settling down to write my journal.

I thought about Axel's suggestion of a spiritual family to keep the group together and Jane's response. I believe he meant well.... Grand father, grand mother, uncles, aunts, husbands, wives, sons, daughters, etc are what bind family members together. However in the face of TAO I am reminded of the need to balance what is truly spiritual binding and our illusion of a bond through familial relationship, spiritual or otherwise...

When we look within and find TAO do we still need a conceptual spiritual family to keep us together?

Hun yuan ling tong!
Kian Tee

Tuesday, January 22, 2008


This post to capture new revelations in my zhineng qigong prectice...

January 22, 2008

When a melting sensation in the head shows up, you will be more nervous.

Jane, I had a thought about what you said above and also about the sensations I have been having which I had said could not be adequately described... It would seem to me that "melting" seems to be the correct description of what I had felt.... "for example: when the qi moves strongly in my head I will feel as if my entire head including the skull (which is solid bone) is moving.. . rather feel like "the skull bone melts and also moves with the qi". The movement can be so strong until I feel the nerves in my teeth (slight pain in the root, I think) responding to the movement. Can you confirm if that is 'melting' sensation?PracticeI started practising ZBE together with the full set of "Zhi Tui Zuo" on Saturday and discover that it has loosened my waist a lot more (LCUPCD feels even more serene and paeceful. And "Fu sheng gong yao: My face is nearly able to touch my knees now.)

I had worked on two routine:
1) Start off with zhi tui zuo with the combined DMLD and RIMD CD that I have made and when done (which will be about 30 minutes or more) I will proceed to do my middle and lower dantian meditation for another hour or more.
2) Zhi tui zuo followed by ZBE1, ZBE2, ZBE3, THCMM and YQ - a total of 2-1/2 hours.
Effect: More profound sensation. Example when I do ZBE the breathing does not feel like breathing anymore. It feels more like opening and closing of the dantians. When massaging the head during THCMM, I could feel as if the entire head is a ball of qi responding to the massage.
I would appreciate your thoughts on what I have done, especially on incorporating zhi tui zuo into my routine.

Change subject:
Annual retreat in Montreal: I am afraid I won't be able to attend.
Your intended seclusion in China: Jane: I have a question: Is necessary for every one to go into seclusion in order to progress further?
Hun yuan ling tong!
Kian Tee

Janes' Reply:
Well, the melting sensation is like ice melt into water, whatever solid turns to nothing. Just a chi sensation not real happening. You are fine. The other ladies reported every cell was burning. Don't worry about fireworks on your advancement path.I can't figure out what Zhi Tui Zuo means in standard mandarin. "I have a question: Is necessary for every one to go into seclusion in order to progress further?"No, that's not for every one. It's only for very very rare people who wants to cross the very last pass in this life, one out of a billion. Don't worry about it, I don't expect any of you to follow me in this matter. I will keep the class connected spiritually, and as I advance with Master Liu, every one of you will benefit.
Life is more abundant!
Posted: 2008-01-21 21:46
I have a question: Is necessary for every one to go into seclusion in order to progress further?" No, that's not for every one. It's only for very very rare people who wants to cross the very last pass in this life, one out of a billion. Don't worry about it, I don't expect any of you to follow me in this matter. I will keep the class connected spiritually, and as I advance with Master Liu, every one of you will benefit.
Thanks Jane. I appreciate your commitment to achieve this ultimate "Transformation". The world needs transformation in order to survive...
Zhi Tui Zuo
Sorry, Jane I should have explained instead of assuming that my hanyu pinyin is understandable. "Zui Tui Zuo" is the straight legs sitting method designed by Pang Laoshi to loosen the waist.
Thanks for your explanation on "melting". Does that mean when this melting happens, we will "feel" as if we have disappeared? And no I am not worried. With your assurance it has become an anticipation of more exciting things to come. But I am aware that I should not be carried away by such thoughts.Hun yuan ling tong!Kian Tee
Posted: 2008-01-21 22:33
Jane's Reply:
Your Pinyin was correct , it just did not occur to me. It's Okey to apply it into ZBE and THCMM. You may find it more helpful if you alternate it with sitting in lotus feet.Melting is a sort of sensation that part of the body just disappears in the consciousness.
Life is more abundant!
Posted: 2008-01-21 22:57

Sunday, January 20, 2008

The wonder of "Zhi Tui Zuo"

January 20, 2008

Since starting on the new CD's from my online practice teacher, Jane Jin, I have been experiencing very strong sensation of 'qi acitvity ' in my head. Jane thinks it is nothing to worry about as long as I monitor my blood pressure to make sure that it is normal. According to her it is a sign of abundant qi in the dantians and the sensations are due to qi doing what it naturally does. With that assurance I ignored the sensations and continued with my normal practice. The zhineng breathing exercises taught by Master Liu has given my ZQ practice tremendous improvement over a period of about one year (I am now into my 4th year and in the coming Chinese New Year on February 7, 2008 I can lay claim to five years of zhineng qigong experience). I have reached the stage of feeling my body being "fluid". However, I could feel that some parts of my energy channels are not cleared yet. The symptoms of this blockage or blockages are feelings of slight fatigue and aches in the shoulder joints when doing my gong. When doing zhineng breathing exercise (ZBE) I would also feel somewhere in the mid point of my spinal column a dull aching sensation. Sometimes I would even struggle through a practice session.

Yesterday, I found an article on "Zhi Tui Zuo" (straight legs sitting method) which I had saved in my computer and decided to try it out. The entire set of exercise comprises of three parts: Beginning, Doing, and Ending. It is an exercise to loosen the waist. As I started on it, I realized that the exercise is not easy to execute as it would need supreme discipline to tolerate the discomfort that I am feeling as qi tries to work it ways to clear the blockages in my spinal column. Having practiced my ZQ for nearly 5 years now, I was fortunately able to endure the discomfort and finished the entire set for the first time of practice. That was last night.

This morning I had a pleasant surprise when I got up. My body feels not only very fluid but when I walk I could feel as if I am supported by qi. The feeling of pressure and slight discomfort in my head that I had described to Jane about a week ago seems to have become a pleasant sensation. Instead of feeling pressure I feel instead the qi guiding the way I carry my head: "the tuck in chin and raise baihui" posture. The next surprise: When I did my first level gong: "peng qi guan ding fa" I was able to do it with total focus on the fluidity of my body and allow qi to guide me through the entire exercise. It was a beautiful experience. Exciting days ahead!

My intuition tells me that zhi tui zuo has loosened my waist further and hopefully the last major blockage is cleared and my gong will see another big leap in progress soon.

Below is the entire instruction for Zhi Tui Zuo which I copied from the site:



The Straight Leg Sitting Method is specially designed to enable relaxation of the waist. There are a number of mental and physical activities comprising beginning, doing and ending activities. The sequence of activities are summarized below:


  1. Sit on floor with legs straight, back straight, pull in abdomen, feet touching. Try to bring knees together.
  2. Forward and reverse Crane Neck, then left and right Dragon Head (He Shou Long Tou) (do 3X)
  3. Place palms on ears, with fingers at the back of head. Tap head with fingers, index fingers first, followed by ring fingers, then middle fingers (do 3x)
  4. Tap head with index, middle and ring fingers at the same time (do 3x)
  5. Press both palms hard against ears. Pop out both palms suddenly
  6. Place right palm over left palm (ladies reverse) on top of head. Rotate clockwise (left-front-right-back) (3x) and anti clockwise (3x). Focus on Upper Dantian
  7. Press down on head (3x) and lift up (3x). Focus on upper Dantian
  8. Place middle fingers against back of ears. Rest index fingers on top of middle fingers. Use index fingers to tap ears three times. Return index fingers to top of middle fingers
  9. Move index fingers upwards around the ears, front and then plug into ear cavities. Twist fingers deep into cavities, with palms facing forward. Vibrate index fingers. Pop out both fingers
  10. Massage ears, pulling ear lobes downward
  11. Place clenched fists inward close to the face, with little fingers pointing upward and finger tips in front of eyes at Yintang (mid brow) level. Move outward slowly (to left and right) till little fingers disappear, then inward again (do 3X)
  12. Turn clenched fists and little fingers to horizontal position, with finger tips at eye position (palm facing inward). Move fingers upward till fingers are out of sight, then downward to eye level (do 3x). Move little fingers from eye level downward till out of sight, then upward to eye level (do 3x). Move outward about 30 cm, then inward (do 3x)
  13. Move index fingers downward along the nose to the cheeks (next to the nose). Using index fingers, massage (rotate) Yin Xiang inward (10x) and outward (10x).
  14. Move index fingers to nostrils. Massage the upper lip next to nostrils, inward (10x) and outward (10x)
  15. Interlock fingers of both hands, with left palm facing down and right palm up (called Hunyuan Palm) at Hunyuan Qiao position (upper abdomen, just below chest)
  16. Tap upper and lower teeth together: front teeth (50x), left teeth (50x), right teeth (50x), then front teeth again (50x)
  17. Using tip of tongue, rotate around gum (inner side of teeth) anti-clockwise ( left-down-right-up) (50x) and clockwise (50x ). Reverse direction for ladies
  18. With tip of tongue, tap lower palate (50x) (imagine tapping at Mingmen). Then tap upper palate (50x) (imagine tapping at Tianmen). Lastly, tap the slit between closed upper and lower front teeth (50x).
  19. Churn mouth to produce saliva. Divide saliva into 3 portions. Swallow first portion on left side down to Mingmen. Second portion swallow on right side down to Mingmen. Third portion swallow directly down to Mingmen
  20. Separate hunyuan palm, rub palms together fast till hot and place palms on navel quickly. Take a breath, lift up Huiyin and move navel toward Mingmen . Quietly vocalise "hong". Do 3X.
  21. Hold both hands with palms facing upward in front of chest. Breathe in, rotate shoulder backward and upward. Breathe out, rotate forward and downward (do 8x)


  1. Place hands on knees
  2. Breathe in slowly. When breathing in, pronounce "Yu-en" quietly, simultaneously lifting up Huiyin and pulling in the navel toward Mingmen. Imagine pulling shoulder joints down to Mingmen and pulling up hip joints to Mingmen. Second stage, pull knees and elbows to Mingmen. Final stage, pull palms and soles to Mingmen. All the above are done during breathing in.
  3. Breathe out and pronounce "Yi-e-ng" quietly. Relax the whole body.
  4. Repeat Steps 2 and 3 for 30 mins to 2 hrs


  1. Relax all joints from head to toe
  2. Lift qi up diagonally and pour qi down the body. (Do 3x)
  3. Use tips of fingers to comb hair. Then gently tap the head with fingers
  4. Use knuckles of both thumbs to rub upper eyelids outward towards temples (10x). Rub lower eyelids (10x). Then massage temples with lower palms (10x)
  5. Slowly pull up knees and stand up. Do three large waist turns, first to left, then to right. Do a set of Fu Shen Gong Yao (Step 5 Module II).

Sunday, January 13, 2008

January 13, 2008
Great class yesterday. Indeed I could feel the tao field more than when I am practicing alone. Admittedly I am a "rare student" as noted by Jane during class yesterday. Actually I would love to attend class on every Saturday but I have to balance my life between my on spiritual path and my family who are not travelling on the same path with me at the moment. I had mentioned that at times my wife said that I am married to qi gong and not to her.

Since walking the path of inner contemplation I am glad to share with the class that it has made me into a more sensitive person. Sensitive especially to the feelings of others and feeling compassion for the emotions (true or untrue) that afflicts them. Therefore a comment like I am married to qi gong and not to my wife carries a great deal of significance for me as far as my wife is concerned. Hence I cannot continue in my own selfish pursuit however noble it may be. Therefore my rare appearance in class .

Hun yuan ling tong!
Kian tee

p/s I am still monitoring my blood pressure and am glad to report that it is still normal. Feeling less pressure in the head now or perhaps getting used to it. Holding the mudra during meditation for long periods of time has given me a sore right shoulder and pain in certain spot when I lift my right arm. I believe that the mudra has opened up some meridians and qi is trying yo clear the blockage. Am I right Jane?

Thursday, January 10, 2008

The Story Behind Zhuge Liang's Famous Feather Fan

I found this inspiring story from this site:

Ancient Cultivation Stories: Zhuge Liang’s Cultivation Practise

Zhuge Liang was the military strategist for the Han state in the Three Kingdoms period of China(220-280 A.D.). He was the most famous and ingenious military strategist in Chinese history. He was often pictured wearing a robe and holding a fan made of crane feathers.

When Zhuge Liang was 9 years old, he still was unable to speak. His family was poor and Zhuge Liang was asked by his father to herd the sheep at a nearby hill of a mountain. Up on the mountain there was a Taoist temple where an elderly Taoist with a full head of gray hair resided (A Taoist is one who studies the 'Tao' or 'Way of the Universe'). The Taoist took a leisurely stroll outside the Taoist temple every day. When he ran into Zhuge Liang, he would try to tease the boy with hand signs. Zhuge Liang also enjoyed “talking” back to the Taoist with hand signs. The Taoist grew very fond of the smart and adorable Zhuge Liang. He started to treat the boy’s muteness problem. Before long, Zhuge Liang was able to speak!

Zhuge Liang was delighted when he was finally able to speak. He went up to the Taoist temple and thanked the Taoist in person. The elderly Taoist told him, “When you return home, tell your parents that I am taking you as a disciple and I will teach you to read. I will also teach you the art of astronomy, geography and the applied theories of Yin and Yang in military strategies. If your parents agree, you must come attend the school every day and you must never skip a class!”

From that day on, Zhuge Liang became the elderly Taoist’s disciple. Come rain or shine, Zhuge Liang would climb up to the mountain to receive his education. He was a very smart and diligent boy who took his study seriously. He also had a photographic memory. The Taoist never had to teach him anything twice. Naturally, the Taoist became all the more fond of him.

Eight years passed quickly and Zhuge Liang became a teenager.

One day while Zhuge Liang was coming down the mountain as usual, he passed by a deserted nunnery located in the middle of the mountain. Suddenly there came a gusty wind, followed by a thunderstorm. Zhuge Liang had no choice but to flee to the deserted nunnery to escape the storm. There a young woman he had never met came out to meet him. She had a large pair of eyes and thin eyebrows. She was so beautiful that Zhuge Liang almost mistook her for a goddess. He was immediately attracted to the young woman.

When the storm stopped, the beautiful woman saw him off at the door and said to him with a grin, “Now that we have met each other. You are free to come by and have a cup of tea whenever you wish to take a break in your trip up or down the mountain.” As Zhuge Liang was walking out of the nunnery, he felt suspicious. “Why didn’t I notice that someone lived in this nunnery before?” he thought.

From that day on, Zhuge Liang began to frequent the nunnery. Each time the beautiful woman would entertain him with warm hospitality. She cooked him delectable meals and always encouraged him to stay longer. After dinner they would chat heartily and play chess. Compared to the Taoist temple, the nunnery appeared to be a paradise.

Thoughts about the woman often diverted his attention from his education and he began to lose interest in studying. He paid less and less attention to the Taoist’s lectures. He also became forgetful and had difficulty in learning new textbooks.

The elderly Taoist discovered his problem. One day he summoned Zhuge Liang and let out a long sigh. “It is easier to ruin a tree than grow a tree!” he said. “I have wasted many years on you!”

Zhuge Liang lowered his head in shame and said, “Master, I will never disappoint you again or waste your education!”

“I don’t believe you,” said the elderly Taoist. “I knew you are a very smart boy, so I wanted to treat your illness and give you a proper education. For the past eight years you have been very diligent in your study, so I thought it was worth the hard work of educating you. But now you are neglecting your education. No matter how smart you are, you will never get anywhere if you continue to carry on like this! You are now promising me to never disappoint me again. How can I trust your words?”

The elderly Taoist continued, “Everything has its cause.” Then he pointed at a tree wrapped up by many thick vines in the courtyard. “Look at the tree,” he said. “Why do you think the tree is half alive and is struggling in its growth?”

“The vines binding the tree are keeping it from growing!” answered Zhuge Liang.

“Precisely! This tree had a tough time growing up in this rocky mountain with little soil. But it keeps growing because it is determined to develop its roots and branches. It fears neither the heat nor the cold. However, when the vines wrap around it, it cannot grow up any taller. It is funny how ‘soft’ vines can defeat a tall, robust tree!”

Zhuge Liang was smart, so he immediately knew what his Master was referring to. He asked, “Master, you knew about my dates at the nunnery””

The elderly Taoist said, “Living near the water, a man will learn the fish’s nature. Living on the mountain, a man will learn the birds’ language. I have been observing you and your actions. How can your romantic affair escape my attention?”

He paused for a moment before telling his disciple with a stern look. “Let me tell you the truth about the beautiful woman. She is not a human being. She is a divine crane in heaven. She was kicked out of the heavenly palace as a punishment after she stole and ate the Queen of Heaven’s peaches. She came to the human realm and assumed the appearance of a beautiful woman. She is a depraved divine crane that knows only to seek pleasure. You have been beguiled by her appearance, but you have wasted more than your time. If you allow yourself to lose your will, you will become a loser! Moreover, if you refuse to comply with her wishes, she will hurt you eventually.”

It was not until then that Zhuge Liang realised the severity of his escapade. He anxiously asked his Master for a solution.

The elderly Taoist said, “The divine crane has a habit of returning to her original form at midnight and flying up to the heavenly river for a bath. While she is away from the nunnery, you will enter her room and burn her robe. She stole the robe from the Heavenly Palace. Without the robe, she can no longer assume the shape of a beautiful woman.”

Zhuge Liang promised to follow his Master’s instructions. Before he took off, his Master handed him a cane with the carving of a dragon’s head on the top. He told Zhuge Ling, “When the divine crane finds there is a fire in the nunnery, she will fly down from the heavenly river right away. She will realise that you have burned her robe and will attack you. When that happens, you must hit her with the cane! It is important that you remember and do what I have told you!”

At midnight, Zhuge Liang went to the nunnery quietly. He opened the woman’s room only to find her robe on the bed. He immediately set the robe on fire.

While the divine crane was bathing in the heavenly river, she felt a sudden heartache. She checked the direction of the nunnery and saw it was on fire. She immediately flew down and saw it was Zhuge Liang who had set her robe on fire. She came at Zhuge Liang and tried to attack his eyes with her beak. Zhuge Liang had quick reflexes. He raised the cane and knocked the divine crane down to the ground. Then he grabbed the crane by her tail. The divine crane struggled and was able to escape, but she lost her tail features to Zhuge Liang.

She became a crane with a bald tail. She was embarrassed by her looks, so she stopped bathing in the heavenly river. She dared not enter the Heavenly Palace to steal another robe either, so she had no choice but to remain in the human realm forever and live among ordinary cranes.

In order to remind himself of this lesson, Zhuge Liang kept the tail feathers of the crane.

From that day on, Zhuge Liang became even more diligent. He would memorise everything his Master taught him and every textbook. He truly absorbed what he had learnt and was able to apply it freely. Another year passed. On the very day he had burned the divine crane’s robe a year ago, the elderly Taoist told him with a big smile, “My disciple, you have been studying under my tutelage for nine years. I have taught you everything you need to learn and you have learnt every textbook here. There is an idiom, ‘Master takes you through the entrance, and it is up to you to practise cultivation.’ You are now 18 years old. It is time for you to leave your home and develop your career!”

When Zhuge Liang heard that he had completed his education, he begged his Master for more. “Master! The more I learn, the more humble I feel. I feel there is more I need to learn from you!”

“True education comes from real life. You must learn to apply your knowledge to life and design different solutions for different situations! For example, you have learnt an important lesson from the dates with the divine crane that one must not be tempted by lust or emotion. This is a practical lesson from a life experience. With that in mind, you must not be confused by this illusionary surface of the world. Take great caution in everything you do. You must see everything in its true form. This is my farewell advice to you! I will be leaving you today.”

“Master, where are you going?” Zhuge Liang asked in astonishment. “Where can I find you or visit you from now on?”

“I will wander around the world and will not settle down again.”

Suddenly Zhuge Liang found hot tears filling his eyes. He said to his Master, “Master! Before you leave, you must give me an opportunity to kowtow to you and thank you for giving me the education!”

Next Zhuge Liang kowtowed to his Master. When he got up, the Taoist had disappeared.

The Taoist left him with a robe with the print of the Eight Diagrams. Zhuge Liang thought of his Master regularly; therefore, he often wore his robe with the print of the Eight Diagrams because it gave him the feeling that his Master was right beside him.

Zhuge Liang never forgot his Master’s advice, especially his parting advice. He made a feather fan out of the divine crane’s tail feathers to remind himself to take great caution for the rest of his life. This is the story behind the famous feather fan that Zhuge Liang carried.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

New developments in my practice

January 8, 2008
I wake up this morning with a strange feeling... My head is pulsing.... rather like it is expanding and contracting by itself. It is a rather uncomfortable feeling and as I am writing now I can still feel this strong sensation. My own believe is that there is too much qi in the head and I need to bring it down. Putting my tongue gently on the upper palatte and thinking of lower dantian does not seem to help.

I wonder if it is the change of practice routine that causes this. Last night I did about 1-1/2 hrs practice as follows:
First 20 minutes with dream melody in lower dantian: ZBE1 + THCMM _ Yang qi concentrating in lower dantian hands clasped in hunyuan ling tong mudra at lower dantian. When the romance in middle dantian music came on I moved the mudra to middle dantian for the next 20 minutes.

The next 20 minutes with dream melody in lower dantian I did ZBE2 + THCMM + Yang qi with hunyuan lingtong mudra at lower dantian. When music switched to romance in middle dantian I moved mudra to middle dantian and concentrated on middle dantian.

Jane, any advice on whether what I am doing is okay and how to reduce this "pulsing sensation in my head? Or should I just ignore it and continue as usual?

Hun yuan ling tong!
Kian Tee

Reply by Jane:

I 'd suggest you change the order, middle Dantian first, Lower Dantian and Yang Chi last.

Keeping the tongue touching the upper palate will cause chi going up to the head, you'd better keep the tongue touch the front teeth or the lower palate.

If it still does not work, just give up the mudra for a while.

Actually it is not a bad sensation with automatic expanding and contracting in any part of the body, you are just not used to it. It's a sign that the chi is really active and abundant and starts to do the job by itself. I'd rather congratulate you. But watch your blood pressure, if it is getting higher, chant HYLTin your Dazhui and Mingmen. If everything else is fine, you can leave it alone.