Sunday, April 27, 2008

I SIT HERE ... IN FRONT OF MY PC ...

I sit here in front of my PC wondering what to write...

My qi gong journey has opened up an awareness within me that there is a greater self within and this is the spirit that we often speak about. As my qi gong practice allows me to look more and more deeply into my being I am beginning to understanding why they say that our body is God's temple. In deep contemplation we experience such peace and tranquility... a feeling that is hard to describe in words. As are the many feelings that I have experienced whilst in meditation that are difficult to put in words... words that are hardly adequate to express what I feel...

As my qi continues to strengthen my "shen" ( or spirit) I become keenly aware of every slight movement of my mind...

  1. Something some one said just gave rise to an uneasy feeling...
  2. I become hurt thinking that I have been wronged by others...
  3. I am hurt because my boss does not trust me...
  4. the list goes on and on...
Sigh... this mind so conditioned by our world is such a fragile mind. Sometimes I wonder just how long I have to suffer this unstable emotional state before I could finally achieve the spiritual constancy that I am striving to achieve through my qi gong and mind cultivation. But through qi gong, reading the wisdom of the Dao De Jing (Tao Te Jing), and meditations has taught me to just carry on with what I am doing without any expectation... If the breakthrough will come it will come...

I went to my son's school last week for a science fair and had the opportunity to peer into a telescope. For the first time in my life I had the opportunity to look at Saturn with her beautiful ring. She was so peaceful and constant as she glides through space... It feels me with awe that TAO determines her beauty and her course through space. So peaceful... so ordered... ever changing and in motion.

Great! I managed to spontaneously penned my thoughts feelings with out any pre-meditation or thoughts on what I should write before I log on.